lighting equipment

i’m just about ready to order my lighting equipment for my camera. a couple of light stands and a couple of umbrellas should do the trick. i’m actually looking forward to playing with the new equipment. the question is…who will be my models? i’m going to have to push pretty hard for a few people to come and help me out. i’m also thinking about getting a cheap cloth background for a few solid backgrounds. maybe i should get a solid white sheet and a few gels too. hmmmm.

now i just have to wait for it to get a little warmer and we’ll be all set for some outdoor shooting. i’m very tempted to also get a reflector and a handy reflector holder. hmmmm.

closure

[url=http://www.track15.com]dardy[/url] wrote about it the other day and i’ve heard about it from others, so i think that it’s a good time to write about it.

closure.

when a relationship is ended between two people, often times the only way you can really feel comfortable about the ending is if there is closure. closure comes in many forms, but most people are most familiar with the whole drawn out talking of why the relationship should end.

most people associate receiving closure in a relationship when they finally understand why the relationship ended. this understanding, however, may be quite difficult to ascertain. the break up is rarely a mutual thing. usually one person wants to end things while the other person doesn’t. it’s the person who doesn’t want to end things that has the most to lose…and they are also the ones who hold on the hardest to the idea that things can still be fixed.

some people find closure when it is explained to them what the other person is thinking. some people feel that they are owed an explanation and they can’t move on without this explanation. though it would be nice if we were told why things couldn’t work out and maybe make a case for how things could work out, the thing with relationships is that it isn’t about convincing people how you think. a relationship is a two way street and once one party gives up, no matter how hard the second party will try, it just doesn’t matter.

i think an indication of closure is when you realize that you won’t get back together with the person. that the chance of getting back together with that person just doesn’t exist. sure, you can blame yourself for all the things that you did wrong or all the things that you could have done, but placing blame isn’t really going to resolve things. you have to just learn to let go.

sushi

last night i invited a few people over to have sushi with me. it was sooooo good. i haven’t had sushi for the longest time. i was afraid that i might not be able to find the right sushi that i want. it’s hard to find fresh sushi sometimes so it was good that i was able to.

i bumped into my friend maureen at ranch 99. it’s the funniest thing. we seem to bump into each other quite often there. small world, i suppose.

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mad world

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places
Worn out faces
Bright and early for the daily races
Going nowhere
Going nowhere

Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression
No expression
Hide my head I wanna drown my sorrow
No tomorrow
No tomorrow

And I find I kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I’m dying are the best I’ve ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles it’s a very, very
Mad world
Mad world

Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy birthday
Happy birthday

And I feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen
Sit and listen

Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me
No one knew me

Hello teacher tell me what’s my lesson
Look right through me
Look right through me

And I find I kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I’m dying are the best I’ve ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles it’s a very, very
Mad world
Mad world

Enlarging your world
Mad world

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