10 blog days?

i’m not sure how [url=http://www.track15.com]dardy[/url] used to churn out 10 blog entries sometimes. i think this is my fourth blog of the day and i think i’ve run out of things to say.

well, that isn’t true.

one of the things that i’m starting to realize about myself when it comes to my nature is that i am particularly sensitive when it comes to people who i consider to be my closer set of friends. these are people who are closer than the outliers or acquaintences. in particular, i think that i’ve recently been exposed to people who seem to have a shorter temper than what i’m used to and they are not shy to express themselves. this has caused me some amount of angst because i think that when it comes from these people i take it pretty hard.

this is odd to me because i think that i generally tend to have a pretty thick skin, so i’m not sure why it is that i’m being so affected. usually i’m able to just brush things off and just shrug my shoulders and say, “whatever.” but these days i find myself obsessing more and more and i feel like i have to walk on eggshells around these people.

i’m not sure if this is something that is noticed by them or not. and instead of having to be super careful with everything i say, i think that what i do instead is that i try and distance myself away from these people so that i don’t have to deal with their outbreaks. if they are going to be unpleasant then i’m just going to stay away from them because i don’t need to deal with that kind of angst. i’m just too tired.

some people may categorize this kind of behavior as running away from your problems, but i don’t think that i’m running away from my problems. i have no desire to try and change these people (not that i think that they can be changed) nor do i feel compelled to call them on these outbursts because i don’t think that it’ll do any good anymore. i’ve tried and if history repeats itself, it just won’t make a difference.


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