this is the moment

This Is The Moment
-Jekyll and Hyde Soundtrack

This is the moment!
This is the day,
When I send all my doubts and demons
On their way!

Every endeavor,
I have made – ever –
Is coming into play,
Is here and now – today!

This is the moment,
This is the time,
When the momentum and the moment
Are in rhyme!

Give me this moment –
This precious chance –
I’ll gather up my past
And make some sense at last!

This is the moment,
When all I’ve done –
All the dreaming,
Scheming and screaming,
Become one!

This is the day –
See it sparkle and shine,
When all I’ve lived for
Becomes mine!

For all these years,
I’ve faced the world alone,
And now the time has come
To prove to them
I’ve made it on my own!

This is the moment –
My final test –
Destiny beckoned,
I never reckoned,
Second Best!

I won’t look down,
I must not fall!
This is the moment,
The sweetest moment of them all!

This is the moment!
Damn all the odds!
This day, or never,
I’ll sit forever
With the gods!

When I look back,
I will always recall,
Moment for moment,
This was the moment,
The greatest moment
Of them all!

i feel like i’m on the brink of making a big decision. i believe that this is the moment.

jenna update

i don’t think that jenna’s going to go over 500 miles on this tank of gas. i don’t know what kind of super gas they put in the dealership, but the gas mileage this time around has dropped dramatically.

i also haven’t been driving as conservatively, so i wonder if it is a combination of factors. i think i’m only going to get about 450 miles this tank, though. it’s a little frustrating, but i’ve been doing a lot more city driving too this week so maybe that accounts for it.

on to other news, the volleyball tournament is coming up tomorrow. i feel a little overwhelmed only because it’s tomorrow and i’m not totally sure if i have accounted for everything. i suspect that it is just pre-event jitters.

man, if i am nervous like this before a vball tournament, what is it going to be like when i get married? =P

how did i get so busy?

you know one of the things that i never thought would happen to me is that i would become busy. it used to be that my weekends were rarely busy and i enjoyed a kind of easy going, fun schedule. maybe i’d do something, maybe i wouldn’t.

imagine my surprise when i look at my calendar now (i find it crazy that i need a calendar to begin with) and i have all these dates filled up with weddings, trips, and who knows what else. it’s all rather overwhelming. i don’t know how it happened, but i’ve become quite busy.

i don’t know if i really like it. yes, it’s nice to have things to do, but sometimes i think that i really just need a break, some time to just shut down, relax, and lazy about.

i was telling my friend last night that i have been having trouble sleeping at night, even if i am really tired. and then i have trouble getting out of bed in the mornings. i told her that i think it may be because i’ve gotten used to sleeping next to someone and it was comforting to be next to that person, but now that there isn’t anyone around, i toss and turn, even if i am really tired.

i think that i’m going to go through my schedule and try to decide if i can find some time to relax and just enjoy the simpler things in life.

thoughts from the vegas trip

though there were ten people who went on the vegas trip, i was never worried about the chemistry being bad. we’ve all been playing with each other now for quite some time and it’s been a lot of fun whenever we hang out. no one had a hissy fit or anything and we got along great.

there was one thing though where i felt like the third wheel everywhere i went. i know that some people tried to make sure that i didn’t and i appreciate it, but couples were everywhere!

the next trip i’m going on, i’m going to make sure that i bring a travel buddy.

the vegas weekend, sunday

sunday started with an unpleasant morning for some. we headed over to this buffet called cravings which was a multi-ethnicity buffet. it was quite good and pretty cheap. i was surprised.

afterwards, people wanted to do some shopping, but i wasn’t so enthusiastic about it so i opted to gamble instead. i went to a bunch of places but liked harrah’s the most. they had single deck blackjack with NO ONE at the table. i probably went through more hands of blackjack at that table in an hour than i would have at any other place in 3 hours. it was great.

the mirage’s player’s club completely sucks. they require you to play a minimum of $25 hands, but will let you use the cards to accumulate points at the slots. how ridiculous is that? i was so offended by this, i played one hand and left. the mirage is nice, but it is not SO NICE that it can be snobby like that. the wynn? paris? bellagio? the venetian? ok, maybe i’ll accept it there. but, seriously? the mirage? you’ve gotta be kidding me.

i talked to the pit boss and he said that that was there policy. i told them that it was ridiculous and the two ladies at the table asked what the player’s club card was. i told them that you can get comps if you play enough with it. they told me that they’ve been playing at the mirage all week, but only $10 hands. i told them that they would easily have gotten free meals and maybe even a free room at other places. i told them that i’m leaving this table because i thought the casino was being snobby. they said it would be the same at any table here. i told them i am leaving the casino and then they said, “so are we!” i think the pit boss was glaring at me as i left.

we all met back up in the evening and flew back to san jose to end our trip.

the vegas weekend, saturday

saturday started around noonish. we went to eat at mesa grill, bobby flay’s restaurant. the food was pretty good there and the lunch menu is actually reasonably priced. it wasn’t that crowded. i remember watching a food network special on the making of the restaurant.

it looked like the whole affair was pretty hectic, but the restaurant is swanky and nice. it’s much smaller than i thought it would be and it didn’t REALLY flaunt the bobby flay name too much, except for some cookbooks you can buy at the front.

after lunch, i went back to the hotel to meet up with diana who flew in later than the rest of us. we decided to go hang out by the pool, enjoy some of the sun and catch up on what was going on with each other.

john and gemma eventuall met up with us and then we all headed over to dinner at the mgm grand. we opted to eat at this asian fusion place which was pretty good.

we originally tried to get into pure, but the line was something like three hours long. ridiculous, i tell you. just ridiculous. so we opted to go to studio 54, which was actually a lot better than i expected it to be. the club itself is pretty small, but the entertainment was cool and the free drinks for the ladies was a bonus.

some people had a little too much to drink, so after they were put to bed, john and i went out gambling. it was actually a lot of fun gambling with him and we had a good time until around 5ish, i think. i was down $20 by the end of the evening.

the vegas weekend, friday night

my volleyball team on monday night has been talking about going to vegas for months. we finally have managed to organize ourselves and we made the trip out there. it was great fun.

friday night:
i departed san jose after swapping cars so that jenna won’t be left alone near the airport. my mom was afraid that jenna might be stolen if i left her in some dark alley so i swapped her with the pathfinder and left the pathfinder at my dad’s office. i arrived in vegas around 7ish and we ate at the rio seafood buffet.

though this buffet was on the expensive side at about $40, the food was pretty amazing. i ate too much food but i was plenty happy. the feel of vegas was settling in.

after the buffet we got ready to go clubbing and we stopped by a bar for a shot of grey goose. our friend knew the bartender there and the shot of grey goose we got was probably closer in volume to 2.5x a shot. way, way more than a double shot. so we all downed the drink and headed off in our merry way.

that was a lot of vodka.

we managed to get VIP passes to rain at the palms, but they weren’t very VIP. we still had to wait in line, but the wait wasn’t so bad. as i was waiting, i started to feel rather sick. my captain bought me another drink and i started to feel even more sick. i excused myself from the line for a little bit and ran to the bathroom where i proceeded to hurl a good portion of my dinner away. i returned to the line feeling much better. i don’t think anyone knew that i had just worshipped the porcelain throne and gave it an offering.

the rest of the night was good, i felt fine and stayed away from any more alcohol. rain is totally overrated now, the music was bad, and it was way, way overpacked. it was so bad that i couldn’t really move much at all. but still, it was good to be out with the gang.

i was really tired after rain and the gang headed back to the room. as soon as we got to the room, i rested my eyes for a bit. i probably woke up 20 minutes later to discover that a bunch of people had left the room at 3AMish to go out again to gamble. i wanted to gamble too, so i went downstairs looking for them and played a little blackjack. it was a little lonely and boring gambling alone so i went back to the room after i broke even and went to sleep.