sometimes i wonder what kind of friendship we really have.

why is it that we will never be able to hang out because of him? i mean, if he really is that jealous, wouldn’t he be jealous if we still kept in touch? what’s the point really? i get that he’s jealous, i get that he doesn’t like me, but if you are really trying to respect his feelings and move on with your life with him, why do you insist on keeping in touch with me on the sly? make up your mind, you can’t have it both ways. it just makes me feel like a friend of convenience.

i think it just annoys me that we could have had a cup of coffee or something. i could have met your man, he could have gotten to know me, and i could have at least done something to piss him off so that he can justifiably hate me instead of hating the idea of me. i’d be cool with that. but it does bother me that he hates me without even getting to know me. that’s pretty close-minded. i really dislike close-minded people.

oh well. it’s too bad that because he doesn’t like me and because you are unwilling to talk some sense into him that we’ll never be able to hang out.

that’s a bummer, dude.

i totally forgot that there was a year where i was not at home for thanksgiving. it was the year that i decided to go road tripping around the country. i ended up having thanksgiving dinner at my friend’s parent’s place. it was pretty good food and very casual.

i think that i really like the coziness of thanksgiving dinners. actually, i think that i like small, cozy meals enjoyed by good friends. i think that when conversation flows easily from one topic to another and good food is flowing is when you know that you have had a good meal.

i’ve been cooking a lot lately. i made a cheese fondue, an oil-based and a wine-based fondue, and a dessert fondue on friday. sunday i made fish masala and chicken korma for dinner. i’ve never really made indian food before, so that was kind of fun.

maybe i’ll cook more this week, too. i just need to find people who will eat.