i’m playing in a practice night at IVL tonight and the team has been instructed to downplay a little so that we don’t get bumped into a higher division for the season. as such, i’ve decided that i’m going to be playing left handed.

so sad…we’re a bunch of sandbaggers.

over the weekend, i decided to go check out top woman shooter and the grace lee project at the asian american film festival in san jose. before we saw the films, we bumped into adam and rae as well as dardy who went to see the year of the yao.

top woman shooter is a documentary by nelson’s brother who we went to support. it is about the world’s top woman shooter…heh. it was kind of cool to see what goes on at these various shooting competitions.

the grace lee project is a film that explores the lives of various people named grace lee. it was an interesting story and i’m glad that i went to see both films.

there is something to be said about independent films. they definitely have a different perspective on telling a story compared to the hollywood blockbuster hits. maybe i ought to add some movies to the netflix queue.

my birthday is this week. i have sort of a love/hate relationship with it. in the past, i used to love my birthday because i had always associated it with good, happy times. but in the last several years, my birthday has been marked with some bad experiences. so i’m trying to look at this year, the last year that i can say i’m in my 20s in a positive light, but sometimes it’s hard.

i look back ten years ago at what i had planned for myself and so much hasn’t gone the way that i thought it would. back then i thought that i’d be married by now…and maybe even have a kid. funny how things work out. instead, i’m single with no sign of getting close to the plan that i had. it’s not something that i really regret, though. life has a certain way of working out and though it hasn’t gone as i had planned a long time ago, i think that my goals are different now. some things just aren’t as important to me as they used to be and i’ve come to realize what is really important.

but still, i can’t help but think that i’m starting to get old. playing volleyball, i get sore more easily and don’t recover as quickly as i used to. even going hiking, i get sore. it’s silly, but it’s a sign that my body just isn’t recovering like it used to. the fact that i have to do strengthen exercises to keep my shoulder and ankle ok is yet another sign of my aging. so sad. maybe i should stop being active, then i won’t be hurt all the time. =P

but i was talking to jimmy the other day, and he told me that he was thinking about making a wishlist on his page and it reminded me of when dardy added one to his page as well. i’ve always had a wishlist on my computer, but i’ve been lazy about moving it online. it’s more a list for myself so i remember all the things that i want to get. some of those items are actually rather pricy and they’ve stayed on the wishlist, never to see the insides of my apartment. but one of these days…

so i took a look at my wishlist and updated it a little. i never realized how much of a magazine junkie i really am, but i’ve pruned the list down a little bit. i wonder how much of this stuff i’ll buy for myself calling it a birthday present to myself. i’ve already gotten two things and i’m about to head off to gilroy with my roommate to do some outlet shopping. i’m very scared.

i’ve been pretty lazy about backing up my photos. part of the problem has been the sheer number of files that i’ve had to deal with and the size. burning onto CD has always seemed like quite a bother and impractical. i’ve finally decided that i should start burning to DVD before something bad happens. now that i’ve started, this is taking a whole lot longer than i had anticipated. i’ve finally getting to 2004, but it’s been taking a long while. remind me not to be so lax in my backups for my photos.

i bought a present for myself and now i’m obsessive about checking the tracking on it to see where in the world my package is.

so close, yet so, so far away!

i had this dream last night that i was in bed spooning someone. i didn’t know who it was, but the feeling of having someone there in bed while i slept felt comforting and safe. something woke me up from my dream and when i woke up and saw that i was indeed alone and it made me a little sad.

maybe that’s what i need to find: a spooning buddy.

currently on rotation on my mp3 player is a little REM/PSB spin:

rem – low
rem – bang and blame
rem – try not to breathe
rem – everybody hurts
rem – nightswimming
rem – i don’t sleep, i dream
rem – strange currencies
pet shop boys – can you forgive her
pet shop boys – nervously
pet shop boys – to face the truth
pet shop boys – to speak is a sin
pet shop boys – jealousy
pet shop boys – london
pet shop boys – home and dry
pet shop boys – in denial
pet shop boys – i get along
pet shop boys – love is a catastrophe

i had a very good chile relleno today for lunch. if i don’t start to get some decent sleep soon, i’m not sure if i will be able to function very well. i’m exhausted today from another night of bad sleep and i’m just barely able to stay awake. i think that i’m going to have to take a break soon and head over to starbucks to get myself a little boost. though the chantico is very tempting, i think i will need something with a little bit more kick in it to help me make it through the day.

i decided to get a double rasberry mocha. we’ll see how that treats me.

john stamos’ new show jake in progress is actually pretty good. i was really hoping that it wouldn’t be another bust or really cheesy, and so far it’s been surprisingly good for a mid-season sitcom. i hope that it continues to be good, unlike committed that started off strong but sort of has fizzled up as of late.

so i went bowling tonight by myself. i was tempted to call someone and see if they wanted to join me, but i decided that it was better to spend the evening alone and collect my thoughts. as it turned out, when i got to the alley, i ended up playing next to cheng, diep, vivian, and company.

oh well, so much for solitude. i am thinking, though, that maybe i should make a day of the week a night of solitude. i wonder how that’ll work out…then again, many nights can shape up like that if i’m not too careful. =P

bowling alone was actually sort of fun though. i played 3 games for $6 and bowled a 119, 154, and 139. so i was still right around my average even though i haven’t bowled in a long time. it took about an hour to finish out those three games and then i went home and lazied about for a bit.

i guess i should take advantage of the tuesday nights that i get off because i’ll be playing volleyball again soon. my new volleyball team name? we’re known as the setting ducks. hopefully we won’t be clobbered by the other teams. =)