crazy rain ranting

man, it’s POURING right now. i forgot to bring a heavy jacket with me so i have a very thin jacket with me that will be just thick enough to soak all the water from the rain. this is just great. it doesn’t look like there’s an end in sight, either. the wind is howling ferociously outside and there’s little i want to do except curl up and go to bed. unfortunately, i have to go run some errands tonight, so it looks like there will be no relief for me.

i haven’t seen it rain this hard in a long time. i used to love the rain when i was younger. i would get all bundled up and then i would go stomping around in the puddles. my affinity for the rain has diminshed since then, though.

this does, however, renew my interest in going rain hiking. it would be just my luck though that it would stop raining when i finally get the opportunity to do it. i would be interested in getting the waterproof kit for the s400, though. hmmm…perhaps soon.

the big thing i don’t like about the rain is driving in it. there are a lot of accidents out there and i don’t want to get caught in any of them. when the next big lull in the rain comes, i think i will make a dash to the car and head home.

anyway, on to the rant of the moment, i’m currently evaluating some software and it’s pretty funny because i’m looking at some of this code and there’s only so much one can do to protect your software when you are writing scripts. this one guy says “do not remove my logo or else my software won’t work”. now that’s a pretty cool idea so i checked how he does this. it turns out that the first thing is program does is check to see if his logo is there. i guess if you don’t know how to program, this might be a stumbling block, but if you know even the littlest bit, it’s easy to work around. it’s funny what software programmers will try to do.

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sickness

oh dear. it’s come over me again.

it’s a sickness of sorts, really. when it first came, it swept over me like a plague infecting my every breath. each breath became progressively more difficult. as i labored to recover and try to remember what life was like before the sickness, i could only wish that there would be an end.

but no. salvation would not come. it mocked me as i withered away in the agony.

it’s been years since i kicked the habit, and i thought for sure that all would be ok now. i thought for sure that i had managed to escape from the clenches of this addiction, but now, years after my initial dealings with this venom it has returned.

and i have relented.

and so now i’m left with nothing to do but fight.

and so i will.

tetrinet2, anyone?

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working blues

today resumes the usual work blues. i guess this weekend wasn’t as relaxing as i had hoped. it wasn’t nearly as productive, either. i’ve got a lot of cleaning to do still.

there is a tradition at my household where we clean up the house as much as possible before the new year starts. this is primarily so that all of the bad dirties don’t stay with you the following year. i guess it’s a japanese thing…though i thought that it was an asian thing. anyway, my apartment is in dire need of cleaning.

and so i think i’ll spend the rest of this year cleaning it up.

sigh. woe is me.

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failed beginnings

it was about this time, i think two years ago, when i was on the brink of pursuing this one girl. all seemed well enough and i was beginning to develop an interest in her. it seemed that things were mutual, and just as i was about to make my move, i found out that she had made plans already to visit this guy. the plans were already in the works weeks prior to me ever meeting her.

this ordinarily would not have been a big deal, however, it turns out that this meeting that she had with this guy was romantic in nature. in fact, it seemed that there would be some booty calling to be had.

but she completely ok with this and attempting to start something with me.

i could not believe it.

yeah, i’m going to go over there and meet up with this guy and we’re probably going to hook up. but once i’m done with him, i’d like to hang out with you again, if that’s cool. you know…that sort of thing.

and that’s when i realized that she just wanted to play around. i definitely did not want my heart strings to be toyed with and decided to quickly distance myself from her. i don’t think much about it anymore, but today i was reminded of this story for some strange reason.

i’m glad that i made the decision that i did and if i had to make it all over again, i would do the same. the only thing i regret is that i lost out on what could have been a good friend. we’ve lost touch since then and i haven’t seen her in quite some time.

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