i knew for a long time that my LCD has the picture in picture feature, but i never thought about hooking it up and trying it out until last night. today i made my way to radio shack and picked up some cables to feed from the replay to the monitor.
and now i’ve got picture in picture on my monitor. pretty neat. the signal doesn’t translate well to full screen, it looks very pixelated. i can’t tell if that’s because of the LCD or the signal from the replay.
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it’s so sad. i knew i was deluding myself, but still i insisted that my dsl was ok. yesterday was the day of my activation, but it didn’t happen. instead when i called the support line, they told me that there was an outage in my area and network engineers were working on it. lovely.
i’m currently on tech support and they told me that they have to escalate the issue. i’m afraid that a tech is going to have to come out and i’m going to get charged for it. grrrr, so much for saving money on DSL.
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[url=http://www.mercurynews.com/mld/mercurynews/news/local/8190100.htm]i don’t live here[/url] but i live very, very close to this place. in fact, i think i can see it from where i currently live. this was one of the apartment complexes that i was going to live at. man, that’s scary.
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think good happy thoughts for my DSL install. please. today is my install date for DSL. i thought that i’d be extra cute and i would wait until the minute that the day starts and i would try and setup the DSL here. but, alas, no. such is not the case, things don’t work as smoothly as one would expect. so i did the inevitable. i called sbc support to see what’s going on.
i actually didn’t wait very long (though it is 1AM) before i talked to a customer service representative. he was very nice and helpful and informed me that the blinking red light of mine means that the DSL line isn’t trained yet and hasn’t come up. that much i knew. i asked if it was reasonable for me to expect it to be working by now. this is when he informed me that the line can go live anytime before 6PM. ugh. looks like i won’t know until i get home from work tomorrow now whether or not there will be a problem with my DSL install. for now, the DSL modem is happily reporting that the DSL line is not up.
this leads me to believe that a work order must be made and people manually activate this line instead of having it run on some kind of automated schedule. sigh. why waste people’s time like this, i don’t know. but yeah. i ordered the DSL last monday so hopefully today’s activation will be done early in the day. i think it’s just wishful thinking for me to hope that it’ll be fixed before i leave for work though. oh well.
but once i get the DSL installed, i’ll happily be zipping away at hopefully much faster speeds. i’ve heard a lot of horror stories about people getting screwed with their DSL install, so we’ll see if this one is bad or not. i’m optimisitic, let’s hope that this optimism isn’t misplaced.
come on, yahoo sbc! don’t let me down!
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last night my DSL was on the fritz. it makes me happy that i’m switching over, i just hope that the new DSL will be reliable and fast. we’ll see. but while the dsl was out, i was very annoyed at the inconsistent service. really annoyed. i guess i just take internet service for granted and when it’s gone, i’m left paralyzed. is that sad? hmmm.
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most of the time, i’m pretty ok. but every once in a while, something’ll happen and i’ll get struck with a wave of sadness. it’ll just come crashing down on me with the fury of a tornado on a rampage. it’ll cut down into me like a thousand razor blades sprung to life cutting into me searching for something they will never find…and in their wake, they leave my shredded remains.
and then i’ll find something to occupy my time so that my mind won’t dwell on such things. today, it was all about cleaning my room. nine garbage bags later, my room is beginning to look pretty decent. it’s a lot more roomy than before, though i’m tempted to go even one step farther and really start shuffling things around. i’m not sure what’ll come of it. we’ll see.
i also decided to put up some ornamental hangings in my bathroom. the bathroom walls were a little empty and so i put up some decorations that i had for a long while now. i guess it’s better. i don’t know.
i think that i’m going to do some work on the wall project tonight as well. i think that instead of going for the top trim as i had started, i’m going to do something a little more bold.
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i met up with geoff tonight at hydration where we had some tea and chilled out. i got caught up with what’s been going on in geoff’s life. it’s interesting to see the life of a student. it’s been so long for me that i forget what it’s like sometimes.
the two of us waxed philosophy for a while and eventually got around to looking at some pictures. geoff’s taking a photography class right now and it’s very interesting to see the projects he’s involved in and some of the things that they are teaching him about. i have to admit that some of the stuff went over my head…things like balance and counterbalance and other design concepts.
it’s hard for me to articulate what makes a good image, but i know it when i see it and i know what the best ways are to have a higher percentage at making a better picture. i really enjoyed talking about photography with geoff and i really liked some of the pictures that he took.
the two of us are going to get together on monday and do some photography work. i think that it’ll be pretty cool. it’s weird but i look forward to doing geoff’s homework just for fun. imagine that. what a weirdo i am.
later in that evening, we found ourselves in a dark alley in east san jose. there was a car parked in front of us where a couple was getting it on. i won’t go into the details of why we were in a dark alley in an unsafe part of town, but that was definitely one of the last places that i thought that i’d be at on a friday night. it was an interesting experience.
i forgot to mention that my oreo cookie ice cream came out pretty good. a lot more creamy than my first batch, and i’m definitely looking forward to tonight’s batch. we’ll see what ice cream flavor it’ll be. i’m thinking maybe, just maybe i’ll try chocolate chip.
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the thing about me is that i try very hard to have thick skin. i try not to let other people get to me, regardless of what they may say. i think that i’ve gotten particularly good at this in the professional sense. if someone were to come up to me and professionally berate me for doing something wrong or messing up or just yelling at me because they can, well, it doesn’t really bother me anymore. it’s a lot easier for me to let those troubles go.
but i am still very easily affected when it comes to things of a more personal nature. i remember there was this one time someone had said something i feel is completely untrue about me to a friend of mine and they didn’t stick up for me. they didn’t defend me, instead they just sat there. at first i was outraged because my friend didn’t stand up for me, but then i realized that the reason that they probably didn’t defend me is because they felt it was true. that shook me up for a few days. i was crushed. i couldn’t believe that a friend of mine could believe it…i thought that they knew me better than that.
and it got me thinking that maybe that’s the way that a lot of people perceive me to be. it’s sad because i really felt that they knew me better than that…or what’s worse is that it made me sad because that’s what their opinion of me was.
i try not to be easily affected by what other people think of me, and to a great degree i feel like i can do it…but every so often i’ll hear something and it’ll really affect me deeply to the point where it’s hard to think clearly.
the moment will pass, as it always does, i’m just waiting for it to come to pass.
It doesn’t take a talent to be mean
Your words can crush things that are unseen
So please be careful with me, I’m sensitive
And I’d like to stay that way.
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