you know one of the things that i never thought would happen to me is that i would become busy. it used to be that my weekends were rarely busy and i enjoyed a kind of easy going, fun schedule. maybe i’d do something, maybe i wouldn’t.

imagine my surprise when i look at my calendar now (i find it crazy that i need a calendar to begin with) and i have all these dates filled up with weddings, trips, and who knows what else. it’s all rather overwhelming. i don’t know how it happened, but i’ve become quite busy.

i don’t know if i really like it. yes, it’s nice to have things to do, but sometimes i think that i really just need a break, some time to just shut down, relax, and lazy about.

i was telling my friend last night that i have been having trouble sleeping at night, even if i am really tired. and then i have trouble getting out of bed in the mornings. i told her that i think it may be because i’ve gotten used to sleeping next to someone and it was comforting to be next to that person, but now that there isn’t anyone around, i toss and turn, even if i am really tired.

i think that i’m going to go through my schedule and try to decide if i can find some time to relax and just enjoy the simpler things in life.