it’s ridiculously early in the morning on sunday. the tournament yeserday went mixed. all of the people i talked to seemed to have a good time, but other people seemed to hear some complaints. i’m not really sure how the tournament was really going anymore. i will choose to believe that it went fine.

after the first day of play, the committee went around and seeded the pools of teams for the second day of play. my involvement in this, i thought, was supposed to be pretty large, but what ended up happening was a few people seemed to take over and completely change what i had envisioned what the tournament would look like. in fact, i think that there are more people who would be unhappy at the way the tournament ended up today than what i had planned.

i was pretty unhappy with how today has turned out roster-wise. i didn’t appreciate at all the attitudes that some people were giving me, particularly because i feel that they had been given ample opportunity to provide feedback to me, but never did. i don’t think it is fair to complain about how things were run if you weren’t going to be proactive enough to help.

i made a particular effort yesterday to go around to captains and talk to them about their team placements to see if they liked where they were at, particularly the teams that i felt were borderline teams and may need to be bumped up or down. i wanted to make sure that they players had a good time, and unfortunately, i feel like all of my efforts have gone wasted because things didn’t end up the way that i wanted to.

i’ve decided that running this tournament has really soured my experience and i don’t plan to run another tournament. it’s just too frustrating.

this tournament hasn’t been run for a few years now because they couldn’t get people to run it. i guess part of the reason why that’s the case could be because no one would want to. =P

but it’s all over and i guess i’m thankful that it went without too many problems.

today has been a little bit stressful. a bunch of things didn’t happen that i was sort of hoping would.

i woke up to realize that an interview that i was supposed to be conducting was taking place very soon. i rushed to work, but missed it. luckily, paul filled in for me.

i’ve been so busy at work and with other things on my mind that i haven’t really been giving the volleyball tournament i’m organizing enough time. as a result a few things have slipped so i spent a good part of today trying to get back on track with that. my co-chair is not being very proactive about helping. in fact, she told me that she decided to demote herself to vice chair. ahem.

and to top it all off i haven’t been able to figure out why this one section of my code is all bugged out. i hate buggy code. i hate that i write so much of it. =P

i ran out of the apartment this morning thinking a million thoughts and now that the day is finally settling down, i feel like i’ve started to catch my breath and relax just a little bit.

i think that i might leave work a little early and just kind of cool off and relax a little bit before volleyball tonight. looks like i’ll be subbing again.

by in large, i think that generally speaking, i’m a pretty straight-forward kind of a person. i do what i say i will do and i mean what i say. this usually isn’t a problem because most people then aren’t left guessing about what is really going on.

it’s the people who don’t say what they mean that really frustrates me. sometimes i get into these heated discussions about something to realize later that what they were really saying isn’t what they had meant. if they had done that from the beginning, none of these misunderstandings, hurt feelings, and general pains would have occurred in the first place.

and then there are those people who continue to make mistakes beyond what i would consider as reasonable. these are the people who don’t really consider other people’s feelings before they act, and often hurt those around them. they don’t learn from their past mistakes, or they choose not to learn.

is it too hard to ask of people in general to maybe think about the repercussions their actions may have before just blindly doing whatever they want?

maybe it is. and maybe that’s why i’m left wondering why it is that i still care about these people who just don’t learn.

why is that?

i was surprised to find out that the gas pump stopped filling my tank out when it reached the $50 mark. i knew that my tank wasn’t full yet, but it still stopped filling the tank with gas after it hit $50.

i have two reasons for why this could be the case. firstly, and most importantly, i bet that the gas pumps preapprove your credit card for a $50 charge. so when you put in your card, it preapproves it for that amount, so you can’t excede that, because it hasn’t determined if you can cover it. secondly, i bet it’s also a safety issue. $50 worth of spilled gas isn’t nearly as bad as a pump just spewing out an unlimited amount of gas everywhere (ala zoolander model fun at the gas station).

but anyhow, it’s annoying that i couldn’t fill up my tank. grrr. stupid gas prices. i think i filled up at like $2.71 / gallon today. ridiculous!

i’m disappointed that my ipod didn’t automatically adjust its time for daylight savings. what is the point of being able to set the time zone that your ipod is in if you aren’t going to do daylight savings too?

that’s lame.

i really try not to be an overbearing, overprotective older brother, but seriously, when i see my sister’s IM away message as:

“If you were my homework, I’d be doing you right now.”

i cannot help but tear my hair out. why does she have to grow up? and what will it take for me to exterminate any boys within throwing distance from her?

*sigh*

i was really, really looking forward to going to the gingerbread house today for a farewell lunch for a co-worker today. but NO! a stupid interview was scheduled so i have to go and interview someone instead of enjoying the delicious joy of the gingerbread house.

i’ve only been there once, but i remember the place to be quite charming. oh well…some other time, perhaps.

you know, part of having an online presence is that anyone at any time has access to your life. you are putting yourself out there and it’s really your own fault for putting whatever you do online for the world to see.

what i write about, what people see is only a small fraction of what is really going on. as bloggers, we draw our own lines as to what we feel comfortable sharing with the world and what things we keep private. when it comes to certain things, i find that i generally am more private than others, especially when it comes to matters of the heart.

but i’m going to deviate a little tonight because i need to vent. i’ve been bottling up everything that i’ve been feeling hoping that it can be masked or put away, but instead it’s like a dam under pressure, waiting to burst. so tonight i write without filters, dropping my guard, and just letting it all go.

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