the last several days can only be described as crazy. it’s strange that it seems like i have so much to write about, but i don’t feel very compelled to write about anything.

people have been asking me how it feels to not work and i tell them that i feel like i’ve still been busy every day and i haven’t really relaxed yet.

i think one of the hesitations that i’ve had is that i don’t really want to write too much about some of the things i’m excited about because i don’t want to spend too much time being excited about it. i guess it’s a self-defense mechanism of sorts. i’ve been trying hard not to get my hopes too high about certain aspects of my life. disappointment is hard to take these days, so i guess by not trying to think too much about it, i’m trying to save myself from any unnecessary hurt. that being said, i think that i will be wildly bold soon. we’ll see what comes of it.

i’ve been toying with the idea of pursuing a degree in photography. i’ve said before that i would never go back to school, but i think that photography is something that i’m pretty passionate about and i think it could be something that i would have a lot of fun with, even if it means going back to school. i’m excited.

two more weddings next month and then i think i’ll be free of wedding for this year. i’m shooting at both, it’s been a busy summer for me. i’m slowly working on my portfolio, too. i think that i may try and design some business cards too. when people ask me what i do, instead of saying that i’m temporarily independently wealthy or searching for a sugar mama, i can tell people that i’m a freelance photographer. yeah…ummm, that’s the ticket.