i haven’t blogged as much as i would have liked to the last couple of days because i’ve been in a pretty bad mood. ever since saturday night, i’ve been put into a bad mood and i’ve been trying ever since to get out. i didn’t really realize that i was in a bad mood until i started to realize that i was short-tempered with some people and someone asked me if i was annoyed.

i suppose that i have been pretty upset and i’ve just had a general annoyance with the world and have been taking it out on people. it’s weird because i feel pretty conflicted these days. sometimes i want to hang out with people so i don’t feel quite so alone, while other days i feel like i just want to be all by myself. it’s hard to really decide what i want to do when my moods are ping-ponging left and right.

but i have been trying to get myself in a better mood and i thought that the hike over the weekend and volleyball would put me in a better mood, but i’ve been grouchy the last several days. i’ve been trying hard not to show it or not to let on to other people, but it’s been hard and i guess a few people noticed.

oddly enough, my spirits were lifted slightly today when i decided that what i really needed was some retail therapy. so i decided to go and buy myself an early birthday present. hopefully it’ll arrive before my birthday, but we’ll see. otherwise i’ll have to wait a long while before i can play with my new toy. i don’t really have a good reason for getting it, either…except that i want it. but that’s what spoiling yourself is all about, right? just get what you want, even if it isn’t necessarily practical.

i hung out with my friend in the late afternoon and peppered a little bit and worked on setting. that was pretty fun too. i think that spending a little quality time with some friends is just what i need to lift my spirits again.