testing people

someone said something to me yesterday that made me sad. it sounded like an offhand comment that was pretty matter of fact, but now that i think about it, i wonder if there was maybe more to it than that. i wonder if people say certain things to illicit a reaction from others. i wonder if people say certain things to gauge what other people are thinking.

it makes my head hurt a little bit to think in these ways because it is so much easier if people just say what they mean. sometimes i think that i’m in a position where i need to act if i want things to work out the way that i want to, and by inaction, the opportunity will pass me by. so many missed opportunities have gone by the in past it makes me wonder if i need to be bold now.

be bold, mike. that’s what i tell myself. stop being so scared. stop letting life pass you by. stop playing it so safe. stop worrying so much. maybe one grand gesture is all that you need and after that everything will just work itself out.

or is it that life is just supposed to work out magically whether you actively try or not?

i’m thinking nowadays that it’s time to be bold. act. pee into the wind.

pearl teaing with thanh

thanh called me unexpectedly today and asked me if i wanted to get pearl tea. i don’t remember when the last time i had pearl tea was, but it’s been a long, long time. with all the volleyball that i’ve been playing at night, i don’t get much of a chance to get pearl tea with the girls anymore. i miss those days. now with my tuesday night volleyball being over, i think that i’ll have more time to relax during the evenings and just relax and sip on some pearl tea.

portable GPS?

i’m thinking about getting a portable GPS unit for the car. i’ve been lugging the laptop with me everywhere i go, but how nice would it be to have the mapping software stored on a PDA? i’ve seen it in action in eric’s car and it seemed pretty neat.

what would be really nice is if either the PDA or my laptop could receive the GPS information. that would be really neat indeed.

what a weekend

this weekend was packed with so many nuggets of goodness it’s hard to remember them all.

friday was a pretty relaxing day. how the hours pass are still unclear to me, but i did some much needed laundry as well as some general cleaning about in the apartment. i tried to get some felt for the poker table for the poker game later this week, but it does not appear as if that is going to be the case anymore.

saturday was really exciting. i took pictures of alisa and steve at villa montalvo. i learned a lot about outdoor portrait work and i hope that i will improve my skills. after the shoot, i went to play volleyball in the park. it’s always nice to get some fun in the sun. i think that i’ve been getting a little too much sun lately, but luckily no burns this last weekend. i’m not sure if that is because i’m still burnt from last week or not, but that’s the way it is. after that i went to golden gate park to check out the location and see if it was any good for a future photo shoot. then i went to eat dinner in berkeley off solano ave and enjoy the berkeley view.

sunday was a restful day running some errands and then finally playing volleyball at JACL. i got a lot of heat for missing the last two weeks. but it was all in good fun.