And now I’m all alone again
Nowhere to turn, no one to go to
Without a home, without a friend
Without a face to say hello to
And now the night is near
Now I can make believe he’s here

Sometimes I walk alone at night
When everybody else is sleeping
I think of him and I’m happy
With the company I’m keeping
The city goes to bed
And I can live inside my head

On my own
Pretending he’s beside me
All alone
I walk with him till morning
Without him
I feel his arms around me
And when I lose my way I close my eyes
And he has found me

In the rain the pavement shines like silver
All the lights are misty in the river
In the darkness, the trees are full of starlight
And all I see is him and me forever and forever

And I know it’s only in my mind
That I’m talking to myself and not to him
And although I know that he is blind
Still I say, there’s a way for us

I love him
But when the night is over
He is gone
The river’s just a river
Without him
The world around me changes
The trees are bare and everywhere
The streets are full of strangers

I love him
But every day I’m learning
All my life
I’ve only been pretending
Without me
His world would go on turning
A world that’s full of happiness
That I have never known

I love him
I love him
I love him
But only on my own

it hurts to blink.

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i made a batch of cookies last night thinking that it would be good to have some for tonight’s volleyball tournament. it turns out that i forgot some key ingredients while making the cookies because i was distracted watching dawson’s creek. the cookies turned out gross and it looks like i may have to try again tonight. we’ll see. i was pretty exhausted after making the cookies last night to only find that they were gross so i’m not sure if i really have the desire or will to try another batch tonight.

tonight is the start of the big volleyball playoffs.

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oh man…i didn’t realize that there were 6 seasons of dawson’s creek! only seasons 1-4 are out on DVD! the horror! the horror! how could i relive all of the days of dawson’s if they aren’t out to rent! so sad.

this, coupled with the news that my new LCD has a dead pixel is about all the bad news i can take today.

i was a little early to meet up with [url=http://jimmy.ocliw.com]jimmy[/url] and diana for sushi tonight so that’s why i’m bumming around at this cafe. getting a nice drink of coffee and just relaxing from a sort of stressful week. i’m not sure what it was about this week, but there was something about it that was just tiring.

and do you want to know what my mind drifted to?

do you? do you?

i have a dead pixel on my new LCD.

it makes me sad.

i need help.

i’m sitting in a cafe in downtown campbell called [url=http://www.orchardvalleycoffee.com]orchard valley coffee[/url]. it is one of the bigger cafes i’ve seen in a long whlie. complete with free wireless internet, this is my kind of cafe. open until 9pm on sunday-tuesday and until 10pm on every other night.

it attracts a rather eclectic crowd rangind from students to old chess players. kind of a nice place to hang out, though they don’t have as many outlets as one would hope.

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i found a dead pixel on my LCD.

just one…

not enough to return to dell as defective, but enough to STARE at me for the rest of my life!

dammit.

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