i realize that i’ve been unusually negative lately. it’s strange because i don’t think that i’m really all that sad or anything, but when i think about things to write, i seem to really focus on the negative.

maybe it’s always been that way for me. i tend to write about what lingers on my mind, and usually that’s the bad. or maybe i’ve just been blocking out the bad so much that now it just seems to be spewing forth. who knows?

a friend of mine has told others when they are stressed they need to take a deep breath and then repeat to themselves “serenity now!” though i don’t feel any more serene, i do find myself rather contemplative.

it’s days like this that you wish you can start over, but i think even if i did, i wouldn’t have done things differently. such is life, they say.

i’m sitting at an internet cafe right now in cupertino waiting to meet up with some friends that i’m going to be doing a wedding shoot for. this’ll be the first time that i’ll be the primary photographer for a wedding and it makes me a little nervous. i talked to my mom about it and she said that it is too much responsibility and i should find someone else to do it for me.

i did had those kinds of thoughts too, but the guy who asked me to take his wedding photographs is a very highly respected photographer in my eyes. i’m honored that he asked me to take pictures for him and i hope not to disappoint. i’m actually kind of excited about it.