the pursuit of finding the strength within to overcome the weakness without cannot be made with a half-hearted effort. no, it cannot. one must pursue their couse with the greatest of convictions if they truly wish to accomplish the task at hand. one cannot set expectations only to break them out of convenience. one should harden their resolve and stand strong and true to their beliefs.

to take the noble path and finish its course is the mark of a disciplined man.

you have to do whatever it takes to achieve that that you want.

go all out, with a blaze of glory, but be true and be fair and all shall be resolved in its own time.

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on wednesday i went to this bar in san francisco called exilir which i think is in the mission. anyway, annie had invited me to go to the bar for this big fundraising thing where all the tips are donated to some cause. it was a big reunion of aphio people. i met some interesting people, shirley may have had a little too much to drink, but it was good fun.

yesterday was spent mostly sleeping and thinking. a lot has been on my mind as of late and yesterday was an opportunity to has things out and just think about things.

i’m not too sure where my head is these days, but the one thing that i do know is that my mood is still happy. and so for as long as that is the case, i think that i’m just fine. the last couple of nights have been pretty sleepless so i feel like i’ve been operating on not enough sleep. maybe that’ll change, but it is nice to wake up for a change and be happy to start the day instead of dreading for it to pass by.

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